Tuesday, May 8, 2012

How are you?

That's the sweetest and most exhausting question for me these days. 

Some days (today) I feel like it's the first day of recovery; other days I feel great. Confession - I don't always do a good job of inviting others in to my new fatigued world. I just sometimes have to pray that God will give them understanding that not everyone feels like talking about TSH levels, hormones, nap times or recovery from major surgery :) I'm up and down like a seesaw.

In the ups and downs of levels and hormones and emotions, I feel desperate for something steady, secure, and sure. 

I've been reading through Galatians this week - just one chapter each day, since there are 6. As I sipped my tea yesterday morning, I came across this anchor: 

"But when God, who set me apart from birth
 and called me by his grace,
was pleased to reveal his Son in me..."
(1:15-16a)

Hold please. God was *pleased* to reveal Jesus to me and in me? It gives God pleasure to save me and use my life for his glory? Even if my hormones are crazy and I feel like I'm running on empty? Even if I don't do a great job of being patient, kind or obedient? 

Yes, Rebekah. Yet another reminder of the beautiful Gospel that saved my soul. There's nothing I can do to earn God's favor. Jesus is the only one who has ever had it, and he covers me because of the cross. God is pleased to reveal Jesus in me. 

Now that is an anchor for my weary soul. I can't lose his favor (I could never earn it in the first place!). Before time began, by his grace, he set me apart and opened up my ears / eyes / heart to the Gospel. God is pleased to reveal his son in me. Wow.